This morning I woke up to realise I am no longer in my twenties! *gasp!* Yes, today is my 30th birthday, and I suddenly feel like now is the time to grow up – well, a little, at any rate. I feel like I need to stop messing around and finally concentrate on everything that I am and everything that I am supposed to be (whatever that is).
Another birthday serves to remind one of the oft-quoted Latin phrase: Carpe diem. Seize the day. There will come a time when we can no longer put things off until tomorrow, because there will be a time when tomorrow never comes. A little morbid, I know, but we sometimes have to face our own mortality in order to truly appreciate that which is all around us, and to spur us on to achieve all that is in our heart. Life is short, so why squander it? Why not make today that tomorrow?
I am forever putting things off. One of my favourite excuses is ‘it’s not the right time yet’. However, rather than believing this to be the case, I use it to make myself feel better. I can’t feel like a failure if I haven’t actually attempted something, can I? And yet, at the same time I am terrified of success too. It can make it a little hard in trying to move forward…I dread leaving my comfort zone; I like the security of the familiar; I like what I know. So I convince myself it is OK not to act, not to try today, because I am not supposed to do it today. And when tomorrow comes it’s the same excuse.
I finally feel like I may have woken up to myself. I could arguably have been described as my own Achilles heel, undermining my own hard work and effort, sabotaging my own dreams all because I am what? Suffering from a little trepidation?
I need to make today the day at some point or I will never grow into the person I am supposed to be, or will never achieve all that I want to achieve. I need to be a little brave, a little sensible, a little focused, a lot motivated and quite a bit inspired…it’s not asking too much is it? 🙂
So, if I am fully embracing the concept that the time is now, I don’t have any more excuses to fall back on, do I? Wish me luck…